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And so my long hard work over the silly season comes to an end. My long awaited two days off in a row have come back into circulation and hopefully my routine kicks back into shape. Right now all i can think about is how happy i am. Its such a releif because under such stress my mind seemed to play around and I guess I havent really been able to think properly. I think im going to have the first good rest in maybe 4 months that has passed. All I want now is my Littlest to be by my side. I cant wait to see her tomorow ^^.
Its all iv been thinking about. Her smile and her hugs. Her kisses. Everything I guess iv been taking for granted while being so stressed. I want to hold her hand and tell her how much i love her.
Yesterday I woke up and sent her a message. But my phone had no credit and she was not able to recieve it. I told her about it. And i lied. I didnt send her a long message. I actually sent her a short message.

All it said was : "I love you"

I wished all day that she had received that message. I really do. I love her so much I cant stand to not let her know that. For all shes put up with. She still looks at me like I am the most amazing person on this planet and to feel that kind of love is the most undescribable feeling on this planet. I feel so apreciated.

Today it is 4:22am and i am not scared of needing sleep. I havent felt that relaxed in a long long while. I actually dont have a care in the world apart from needing to see her ASAP. When I sleep my last thoughts will be of her. And when i wake up The first thing im going to do is call her and let her know how much i love her. I didnt get a chance to send that message through and by my will, i'll make sure that she knows shes the most important thing to me in my life right now.

I feel so gay LOL just because today i was changing for work in the mens locker rooms and "Peter Framptons - Baby i love your way" was playing on the M-stream (our hotels internal music system) and i was smiling to myself and singing it as i was thinking of her. One of my collegues caught me smiling to myself and singing LOL GG......What a Fool i am hahahah..Actually it wasnt a big deal but i felt like a loser because some people may think im a loser for being so corney and fair enough I guess im a bit of a spastic for being this much in love, but i cant help it.

All i ask is that people take into consideration that Iv been with her for a long time now and I love her more than ever before. Im not some immature idiot that doesnt know what loving someone means. This kind of thing is dying out and now a days its not cool to love someone like this. I try not to be so open about it and just share it between me and her but i cant help it. If i had a chance id write corney shit like this every day and not care. But Sometimes things are better left untold :).

I want your hugs and kisses when i see you today. Iv been waiting for them since I last saw you and to be honest I need them now more than ever. I love you. And ill see you later today <3 ^^.

Thought of the day: LOL some people were having sex in the ship inn toilets LOLZ. FAIL!

Tristan: (While having a wizz) Man I finally get two days off!

Chad: Yeah fuck man iv been waiting so long for two days in a row..btw you going to nadines *Interupted by suss noises*

Tristan: Chad did you hear that?


Silence...... ....... ...... .......


Chad & Tristan: LLIOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL yeah they are having sex in the cubical..


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