Been off the blog for a while...well actually maybe like only afew days lol...But iv had alot of time to think..specially about how Im starting to lose sight of how i actually am around people...Looking back maybe 2 or 3 months ago i found myself telling people what to do in an attempt to show some leadership. Sometimes its hard knowing how things work properly...and especially when no one will listen to you..im not being a know it all but sometimes on the odd occasion you just know a good common sense. Well I find that no matter how hard you try there is no way of telling people more stubbourn then you, how to do something properly...even if they are wrong...I just felt abit ill because i was always nice..i always tried to tell them in the nicest way possible...but id just get comments back like "Be yourself....say whats on your mind....dont be fake".
I dont like being called fake when im actually a nice guy...and especially when im trying to treat you with the respect I would like when you talk to me.
Anyways im back to me again..im just nice and no longer taking any responsibilities. Things have been running smoother since..ofcourse the same problems of day to day life loom in the areas but atleast i dont have to take responsibility for them. Im much happier being me rather than being the elder. I spose ill never fix bing a grumpy pants on the odd occasion...Oh well i wont be able to help that!...Bur being a nice guy full stop has made life much easier again ^^....
I Feel bad coz i was being a negative nancy today with Jenny at lunch time lol... But im sorry i eat simillar shit to that every day at work..but i was happy with the rice ^_^... I find that my eating habbits are very particular and i do love trying new things...I even tried 10 day old pizza and i loved every bite of it :).
But if i dont like something i cant just magically like it to make everyone happy LOL XD!...instead i just stay quiet LOL.. (I was really looking forward to eating chicken katsu don aswell...then we got sidetracked by that restaurant >_>)....
it suddenly reminds me of something that was said in our star sign compadability..which btw was a very poor match up apparently for me and Jenny...LOL.. but it said something like "she enjoys trying new things where i would be attatched to ruitine" LOL....
I hate things like that....but in general I hate the idea of everything being layed out for me telling me what or who ill be good with...I hate not having control of my own path...its funny though because on the flip side i believe in fait...Like things happen for a reason..I spose all im trying to say is...No one can tell me what to do with my life...and (e.g.)especially how i feel toward another starsign....but also things happen for a reason to make life a more understandable place.
I think im getting abit to philosophical..
Listening to an old track of mine "Time will tell - bob marley" look it up and tell me this song doesnt atleast make u a tad bit happy :)...
Thought of the day: ^_^ Im not scared... cant beleive i was quoted on that :D!
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