Missunderstood..

I find that when i say or write things they do not come out the way i originally feel. As a result alot of this is missunderstood. I never really cause any harm with what I say but i feel abit limited when it comes to the true extent of my feelings. I find it hard to tell my girlfriend everything i feel about her. Spose its a combination of being shy and not concentrating on what i need to say. When i want to explain something from my point of view I feel that sometimes i just sound like a stupid male...I dont give myself a chance to think before I talk..I spose she doesnt notice but i try really hard to think about what im about to say which is why I often pause between conversation. When i tell her how much i love her...I pause and try and chose my words carefully. I do not regret a word i have said in the past because none of what I ever say is with intent to hurt.. :) we are happy after all :)....
I bring this up because when i dont explain myself properly, people underestimate the kind of wisdom I hold. I know alot about life and its hardships. Its fustrating because I dont know how to tell someone that they are not understanding what im trying to tell them lol. (im starting to think even this isnt making any sense). Anyways..people dont need to tell me that im still young and i dont know the bigger picture. Because i know a far bigger picture. I cant explain to you how i know it...I just do...Iv seen things just like everyone else has and i think its selfish to assume that ur life is so much harder than everyone elses just because something bad happened to you or someone you know, or a family member....I will admit that other peoples lives may be harder, they would definately know a pain i could never understand.....but some people just take the fucking piss...
Iv met some people with alot of problems in my lifetime...and every single one of them are as modest and genuine as the last. Iv met some spoilt fuckers aswell...that complain about the smallest things then think they have the right to tell me i dont understand because im too young..(WOW this turned into a rant) LOL.
So now i figure i need to be abit more clear about my expressions :). Tell my girlfriend exactly how much i love her. And to be clear about how I feel with my collegues. Ill stay the same :) i just want people to understand me a tad bit better. AND as always ill be here to listen to problems ( i find the best way to console someone is to listen to the problems and thats it). Id never give advice unless they asked for it :).

I was just abit troubled because i always thought that people were just not understanding me properly when in actual fact I just wasnt explaining myself properly, and not speaking up when I had to...

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thought of the day: I had a nice day :)! and my room smells like passionfruit XD!!! how gay..

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