I dont ever hold grudges...In fact iv had some pritty bad shit happen to me...betrayal, hate, all that sorta things that would drive someone to hold a grudge forever..but even still...i dont hold grudges...
Or do I?..does it count if uv only held one grudge your whole life? Just one? One that would burden you for the rest of your life? This is the incident that changed my life....Definately for the better....but under some horrible circumstances involving me..Its a scary thought to hear a doctor say that you could have died if the damage was 1 more inch higher than the actual point of impact....
When i was 17 i used to be in alot of shit in my neighbourhood....fighting with the local boys..who alegedly ran the place like gangsters... Long story short I did something pritty bad...i enjoyed the glory and praise of my work without thinking of conciquence.....2 weeks later my jaw was broken one inch away from my temple...you know? The soft part of your skull LOL!...
Iv been fighting with aboriginals since i was a little kid..I grew up in the suburb of waterloo which was the next suburb from redfern. So i was smack in the middle of an aboriginal comunity which was corrupt. Every day i saw my friends being pushed around and bullied by them. Not just my friends but even me....At the young age of 9 I decided that I wasnt going to take this shit anymore. I got into my first fight with a group of aboriginals who came to pick on me and my friend who used to live next door..They thought they could beat us in a game of soccer...but they lost 3 nill...being the sore losers they were..the pushed me and my friend around...but then i snapped..got into a fight...but lost. I was bleeding from my mouth and nose...it was 4 of them against me..and i still managed to fuck one of them up haha...
Since then iv always hated Aboriginals...And iv always been fighting with them till i was 17 (When my jaw was broken)...
This is the only grudge i hold...and although Im a really nice guy....and i hate racism...this is one of the things I really can not help...Every time i see those people drinking on the corner of the streets....fucking stumbling around drunk...swearing...picking on other kids....acting like gangsters...I fire up inside and im always ready to fight....I hate thier race with a passion....I admit in this sense I am a racist....but they drove me to hate them. From the way they speak...to the way they act...
I remember long time ago this abo kid was acting like my friend because i ran into him in the street when he was by himself...he was so nice to me....because he knew if he pissed me off i would of hung him by his nuts from the roof of the shop we were in...charming he was...acting like he knew me for a long time....then again i walked past him afew days later....and this time he was with two of his big mates..Suddenly we wernt friends anymore...the little rat was like "Come on chad you wanna get smashed kunt?"...I told him to fuck off and said "Im standing right here you little bitch...why be so nice to me when your on your own huh?" they came over to me and pushed me against the fence...I was scared i might get hurt..but i couldnt let them take my pride (I spose thats the male in me talking)..as they had me up against the fence i was like "What now" they just pushed my face and walked off laughing...I spose i was lucky that time because the two boys he was with were twice as big as me...
anyways thats my one and only grudge...Its fading away now because i have no direct relation to my past anymore..Im so far away from all that trouble i used to be in...but it wont take much for that fire to burn again...
I just wrote this because a certain someone was interested in my one and only grudge...I dont want anyone who reads this to think of me differently and it is quite personal...i get angry when people bring it up. I still am the same chad you know..
Thought of the day: This Sudoku must be broken O_o;...I need Jenny to check it
for me...
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