Ph43R The love that struck me down......

It struck me down and made me a stronger man.....

In my life I did things with my own strength and when it came to what I believed in most I never once sold out. Unfortunatly sometimes when you live in a world that can be kinda fucked up, you can be as honorable or as admarable as possible and no one would give a fuck. Im reminded of the times I used to be brave and stick up for my friends...and how I was repaid for my honor and respect! A broken jaw and a thanks....my family was terrorised and the friends i stuck up for ran in fear. I did not care....I did It to realise for myself that I was still a good person fighting for what I believed in.
Years later I met the Devil. I loved her so much and for a year it was good. Slowley things deteriorated. I was in the position where I was stuck with a girl who loved me so much but had alot of problems. I never sold out!...i stuck by my morals of support and kindness.....I listened and tried to help her through 2 more years of bullshit...untill finally i realised that this was a cycle of the same shit that was happening every year.....why did I even bother.... was sick of being the nice guy.
ALOT more has happened but i cant be fucked ranting...thats for another day..the real point of this blog entry is about to start!

Of all the bullshit that iv been through Iv always thought to myself that oneday all my griefe and all my efforts to still stay that nice guy..would some day pay off...and how i longed for that day to come every dreadfull year that had passed. I think im being abit too dramatic because alot of good stuff has happened to me in the last 3 years when it came to my career. But all because i was a hard worker.

Let me tell you that its all payed off. I now live my life knowing that my closest friends are now my only friends. My family are closer than ever before and although sometimes I'm very far away from some of them. I try my best to go visit them when I can. I pray they still love me and I spose I can say that its probably not far from true.

Getting closer to the point of this blog!! LOL!..sorry long intro...anyways.....

Four months and nine days ago I made the best discision of my life. I met a girl and made her my girlfriend. This was what I was waiting for. This was the twist of fate at the end of my long story. This is everything I'v ever wanted....and finally it happened! I met Jenny. I love her more than anything and its the only thing I think about. My life has improved a million times over and im so happy because she brought me back to the good things in life. Because of her i'v seen new things, because of her I'm reminded of old things from my childhood. I visited places I hadn't seen for years. When you get older it seems to be a common trend that nightlife is the only life.......I sorta got used to the idea that going out drinking was the only sorta fun i could have. Thanks to her I remembered how much i love to just lay in the grass and stare at the clouds in the sky, visit museums, visit the batanical gardens like i used to with my mum and my brother, the chinese gardens, long walks on manly beach, the BBQ place in pyrmont, Yummy dinner with new and old friends, playing pool and bowling, sitting by the water at darling harbour, the streets of melbourne, and many more things.

The thing I love most about her is that she loves me for who I am and nothing else. It makes me feel like someone has finally noticed. I love her for who she is. I can't believe my luck. And believe me...if you knew the story you would realise exactly how lucky I am to have seen her again after meeting her for the first time at Havana All those months ago.

I never was as corney as I am now. Or maybe I was...i just never had a chance to show it. She is so different to anyone I'v ever known. She gives me a strength I never thought I had. She picks me up and pushes me forward when I fall flat on my face. Im sleep deprived and she puts up with it. I only used to know one girl that was stronger than anyone Iv ever met...that was my mum. ( im not being a mummies boy...if u ever knew my mother u'd know. Ask any of my closest friends).

Now I know two :).

Im not pussy whiped...I like to call it madly in love. I have every right to be in love and to show my love. I wish people could understand that when im with her, I feel so much better inside and out , from the tallest strand of hair on my head to the tips of my toes. I love her unconditionally. If there ever was a condition it would be that she would let me look after her.

I do not know what the future holds for us...Quite frankly I do not care. All I know is that she is the one for me. Im very stubourn when it comes to how I feel and no one can tell me different.

I feel good right now that iv typed this out for others to see...and I dont mind if you still dont understand ^_^;

Thanks To Tim & Sandy for reminding me that there is still love out there. Iv never seen that much love between two in my life.

Thank you Jenny for showing me that there is still love inside me.

Thought Of the DAY: Getting owned at work LOL!....

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