That woman...

After all these years i still hate her...

I always think back and try and understand why i wasted so much of my time. I don't really get it since i guess i always held my self in high respects. I guess it had a little to do with me holding on to my honor and being faithful....what makes u stay with someone you hate?...kit said something to me which made me wake up.

"Why are u still with her if she makes u unhappy?.....I think its because your to afraid of the fact that u cant get anyone else...."

Im not a very independent person sometimes....well apparently im not independent emotionally....a large amount of my reliance lies in my friends, girlfriend and family. I found out that when im alone i get really down. Not because im by myself but just because life is boring if u don't have others to share it with.

I find this more and more as i spend days by myself just walking around doing things on my own.....I hate alone time. Id rather walk with someone then walk alone in the street. If not then at the very least have my Ipod or something that provides me with music so i don't end up thinking to much.

im sure im not the only one that hates thinking about stuff you cant help but think about. How do you forget.....I hate that women...and even more than a year later....im still cursing her..

I just feel like a fool for trusting her. It makes me even angrier to think that I actually loved her at some stage. It makes me sick to hear a female talk with a fresh Asian accent just because it reminds me of her. that bitch....

I couldnt sleep so i decided to blog....and that's all i could think of. Pritty fail i guess....


Thought of the DAY: EVASION! Gotta somehow get out of partying after work tomorow!!....omfg the cross??....GEE GEE...no way!

Mol3 s2.