Thunder !!!!!

"He was struck by thunder, arose weak but strong at heart. NOTHING could keep him down. And just like the strength of thunder he came back twice as strong"

That was taken from a story i wrote in year 7. I did it for Narrative writing....my teacher failed me unfortunately. It was funny because back then and even still now i never really was able to express myself clearly..in writing and when talking. It just seemed the things i said never ever came out the way i wanted. So in saying that...the first paragraph i wrote in this particular blog actually didnt sound anything like what i wrote all those years ago in year 7 lol. it sounded more like:

"he was hit by thunder and stud up week but strong in side. he was much stronger when he stood up"

(Yes i did mean the miss spelling and stuff LOL coz i was actually that stupid)

Which isnt so bad.....i guess...truth be told i cant really remember hahaha....the last thing my teachers told be when i dropped out of high school was. You need to be smarter with your life choices, you need to train yourself to be smarter and make the right decisions ( I tell this story often to a lot of my friends).

The right decision for me was to tell my teachers to "fuck off"....

Anyways...the point of all of this is that. I never was the best. What i felt I was capable of was never seen or recognized. I just needed someone to tell me I was good. Things like that can really bring you back on top of the world. I suppose in the 23 years that iv been alive, iv learned that the only person that you need appreciation from is yourself. I used to compare myself to my friends and yes.....all my friends through out high school were smart. Well...smarter than me.
In fact right now most of them are in relationships and families and businesses. They have partaken in responsibilities im not yet capable to commit. But that never stopped me.
See....thing is. Even though they were all smarter than me...I knew there were a few things i was better than them at. Mostly the physical things...like sport etc. I also was an artist....and so i milked that for all i could. Suddenly i didnt feel so divided....I didnt feel so dumb...the truth is...that every human being is different, good at some things, bad at some things. Sometimes it takes you a whole load of experience to actually understand your own potential. Till this day i think i am dumb. But that doesn't mean that im not smart. I just like to say that because unfortunately in this society people judge you by the things you have achieved without even getting to know you or what you do for a living. They look at things like "OK he doesn't have a car, okay he cant spell, okay hes not making sense, omfg he cant even unscramble A.D.N. to make a simple word, he has no degrees and isn't even studying. If only they saw the life decisions i made in this hard life iv lived. If they could see me work on a Friday and Saturday. They would see a completely different type of skill they would never be brave enough or capable to handle. There's a big world out there and it doesn't just take logic to be smart about it. In fact one thing "smart" people don't have is common sense, well most of them anyways.

Now i look at me compared to my friends LOL!....
I make more money....
I'm still a nice guy with a great personality.
I didnt waste my youth studying my ass off and not having a social life.
and the best of all is im still modest....(they don't even know what i do for a living (LOL not being so modest in this blog ahahah)).

This reminds me of a friend who said to me "Your not even studying or have a job?...wow one day i might actually be counseling your children" Yeah he works for the salvos....and still does....Some days i wish he could see me now with my PHAT Yearly salary and Tips i get each year >:)...but that wouldnt do me any justice...

anyways

I wrote this because I want you to understand that you cant judge your accomplishments by comparing them to another human beings success in life. People forget that doing something as simple as being a good person is the smartest thing you could do in life. Having a great personality and just enjoying life makes you much more smarter. I don't want you to look back and feel like you lost your freedom struggling so hard to meet expectations and trying to make something of yourself. Like you said. If its not over its not the end. Stay as you are and your reward will come :)!

Finding your place in this world is to hard....but don't worry just sit back and it will find you ^^.

thought of the day: "DW about patty haha he was born with a dick on his head" LOLOLOL!

Mol3 s2