THE FLARE IN ME!

TODAY! OMFG! 50 guests! Came up for a special drinks party :)! I was having so much fun with them...My boss wanted me to do a flare show for them...so gathering all the confidence i could....I DISPLAYED MY VERY FIRST FLARE SHOW FOR THEM!" WOOOOOOOOOOT! it was the most epic feeling having around 70 people cheering for you when u busted an epic move XD!..everyone was having so much fun!! LOTS OF PHOTOS OF ME TRISTAN AND ADAM KISSING 40 - 50 year old women LOL!....TRISTAN WAS A HIT WITH THE OLD LADIES...THEY ADMIRED HIM SO MUCH ^^!...

but seriously.....first ever display of my flaring skills...and i killed it....I was nervous and yes i did drop the tin once or twice....but I made so many people happy and my colleges were fully gratsing me and cheering me on!! I think i might start practicing again seriously...because a new flare bartender will be joining the team!...My boss wants me and him to perform on weekends...which means ill have to practice not only my skill but my confidence as well >_<;...truth is...i have a different motivation behind why i do it...I do this because she fills me with confidence!!!.....ALL DAY I THOUGHT OF HER......<3..I do it now because I want her to see how much shes changed my life...how much happier I am now >: ). Now that I have her...I don't think anything can stop me...She just keeps proving to me that life isn't hard if you've got something good...*Looks to the bright side*...

Now i just need to convince her of how beautiful she is.. not only on the inside.(Shes got the biggest heart iv ever seen in my life). But on the outside as well :). I don't want her to ever think that shes not good enough for me ^_^...in fact shes better than me in so many ways. I never want to hear something like "You could do so much better" Truth is I cant.... There is no one else on this planet quite like her.

I just wanted to randomly add that iv been having some strange dreams about losing her!...Or her being so angry at me....I think i know why now....I actually didn't realize the magnitude of how scared i am to lose her....I actually sat down today while in briefing and came to the realization that if i would ever lose her..i would not know what to do...

anyways lets keep this positive! :)! ima wake up tomorrow nice and early to start practice!..i know i made some promises (While drunk might I add)...to get buff and cut to motivate some people or some random shit...but now iv got my sights set on a new goal :)!....LETS DO IT OKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYY!!!!!

p.s. im still sick GAYYYYYYYY!!!!

thought of the day: Read the last post LOL!...

Mol3 s2