The 1st of June my darling celebrated the 19th year of which she has blessed this planet with her presence :). I hope she had alot of fun! I enjoyed seeing her with friends she had not seen in a while. I know the feeling of being with friends i havent seen in a while. Just to see everyone together brings u back to old times. Im sure she felt that way. Its an inevitable fact that some day we might all lose touch with close friends. I guess the important part is enjoying it before u see it slip away. I hope she enjoyed recieving alot of presies aswell haha ^^ they were all really nice and one of which i can enjoy aswell muahahaha!..Wish i could thank her friends for making her so happy :)! I pray that they will stick by jenny's side for aslong as they can! anyways now shes one year older so i dont feel so bad for being 23 LOL!...
Andriantos birthday fell on the same day but celebrated that weekend hahaha! Its so nice to have a good friend like that :). I hope the boy also had fun! i dont want to sound gay but it makes me happy that i make him happy every time he sees me lol!....He was like a puppy jumping onto me in the street like that hahahha! I like his attitude toward having fun! :)..I remember me and him were buying a kebab while three other of our friends were talking to some black african guy!...they were gonna have a fight but i broke it up. Andy said "Come on guys lets not make this a bad night". Kinda made me realise how right he is...and just refreshed my mind on how i also need to keep calm these days. Its all about having fun...and now i have something i dont want to lose ever.Iv decided that im going to slow down on alchohol consumption :). so far im at the 2 and a half week mark which is quite sweet! But not so sweet because i always look back and take a peek at the bottle of appleton estate rum sitting on my drawer. Iv run into a problem with my health and im not sure what it is exactly as yet but slowing down on alchohol is probably a good idea. I actually feel so much better and get really good sleep!...sleep i havent felt in a long time. I know iv had a problem with alchohol back in the days but im so much different and much stronger than i was back then. Sometimes you just need to realise that there are things in life that are so important that u cant waste time. I dont want to lose a moment right now. Ill save drinking for special occasions and definately i wont get super drunk anymore...just afew sips. But its early days to talk so big hahaha! I get a special prize at the end of this month if im a good boy and dont drink any alchohol...apart from tasting my cocktails at work Hahaha...what?its part of my profession. Anyways hahah SPECIAL PRIZE HAHAHAHAHAH! what an insentive ahhahahah!
I found my old hard drive. And with it, a whole bunch of pics and music i used to listen to. One thing it reminded me of was the whole period where i was finding alot of interesting things about women LOL!. I found out most of what i know these days through talking with girls over the internet lol! i used to have alot of penpals which i emailed or talked to on msn chat, Or my msn messenger via webcam. Before then i didnt know things like how girls have two types of orgasms or the bra sizes (im still pritty fail at that i only know what sizes D, DD, and B look like). I also started to realise that most girls have lesbian tendancies. I dont know wether subconciously it makes them feel hotter, LOL or maybe its just because girls are just more affectionate toward one another hahah...Or maybe i was just wrong...but yeah...even guys can be pritty gay without being gay.. *Looks at Kevin Thai*.. Anyways I still think all girls are secret lesbiens because they still think all men are assholes LOL!. That reminds me of something i said to Jenny..."Im a guy who was born on the wrong side"...as in like im not an ass hole. More like, I hope im not an ass hole :).
I reconnected with my love for rap music. Haha its funny because as i was stuck in a nastalgic trance, I stumbled apon the realisation that I might very well like Wu-Tang Clan because they are a bunch of niggaz who have yellow fever just as much as i Do! Theres a massive asian influence in most of thier rap LOL. Thier raps are actually the most intelectual rap iv ever heared of. Check them out.
Lately iv been having a little trouble at work. Theres a girl that works over in Altitude restaurant who really likes me. Things are good now but i actually felt some heat being in such an awkward situation. Some people can be so difficult. Despite knowing that I have a girlfriend she kinda does little things toward me that are quite inapropriate. Actually i think shes a nice girl and we get along as friends really well...but i dont want this awkwardness anymore. We are friends without talking. It makes me feel better. Its all my fault though for being so nice. I just know that Jenny trusts me 100% and i dont ever want that to change ever!!!.....I couldnt be more happier with who Im with right now and nothing in this world could ever tempt me into doing something unfaithfull...All my needs are satisfied (when i say that, i mean emotionally but yes ofcourse theres the perks). I cant wait to go away with her for a weekend where no one can bother us!I apreciate the time shes given to me ^_^.
Which brings me to my next subject! Its winter and there is nothing like being next to jenny but naked snuggled underneath my blanket hahahah!>:P jokes....nothing like that ever happens XD! or does it?? Anyways hahah i still love her so much!..its been a long time weve been together and as the months pass I guess my love gets stronger and stronger. So much to the point that...its hard for me to last two days without messaging her or giving her a call. I guess im really keen and i need to practice some self restraint so i dont smother. Sometimes i cant help it. 90% of the time, its her that keeps me smiling. She reminds me why im still in it! while im still going. I almost lost it all but then i met her. She reminded me of how much I love my own family and friends, Why im a nice guy and why im never going to stop being a nice guy. Ill take it easy though :). Not be so keen...but be keen enough for her to know that i still love her so much!!!!Theres something thats running through my mind constantly. Early in this year Jenny told me that my starsign reads that ill enjoy something like 80% of the year and 20% of the year misrable about something. I hope thats true but i dont know. Im getting head aches and dizzyness for no reason. my heart beats faster when im sitting down doing nothing. I think im getting sick and i dont feel like im recovering. I want to know what it is. Soon ill have some time off work to visit several doctors..but i dont want to get to the point where i have to see a neurologist. Its kind of hard for me to talk about but i spose thats what this blog is here for. Im going to the doctor next monday for another heart examination. If nothing is found then its off to the neurologist. Another $300 down the drain but i spose it will be worth it if i can find out whats wrong wrong with my head. Fucking hell... this dizzyness it really annoying me..im finding it harder and harder to work weekends...im just praying to the higher powers that its all just stress!....i need a good holiday...work is getting abit to intense for me...its been 3 years since iv had a proper holiday (im talking like 3 or 4 weeks on holidays) but well see.
Id hate to leave this post on a bad note so heres a funny joke:
A blonde, wanting to earn some money, decided to hire herself out as a handyman-type and started canvassing a wealthy neighborhood. She went to the front door of the first house and asked the owner if he had any jobs for her to do.
"Well, you can paint my porch. How much will you charge?"
The blonde said, "How about 50 dollars?" The man agreed and told her that the paint and ladders that she might need were in the garage. The man's wife, inside the house, heard the conversation and said to her husband, "Does she realize that the porch goes all the way around the house?"
The man replied, "She should. She was standing on the porch."
A short time later, the blonde came to the door to collect her money.
"You're finished already?" he asked. "Yes," the blonde answered, "and I had paint left over, so I gave it two coats. "Impressed, the man reached in his pocket for the $50. "And by the way," the blonde added, "that's not a Porch, it's a Ferrari."
i laughed at that one for a good 1 minute lol anyways
Its getting late now and i have to meet jenny today! Thank god i can see her lol! I thought id have to spend another day playing tekken and eating at roll plus LOL!!
thought of the day: Im still not scared ^^
Mol3 s2
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