oH man, Wheres the inpiration!...

This past week iv just not been bothered....Its such a bad state of mind. All i did is sit around and do nothing...my music is booring...my drawings are boooring...the only thing i look forward to right now is spending time witht the miss.......i feel soo....Hmmm...drained by my own lazyness. Thats probably the best way to describe it....My rooms in the worst state it has ever been in a long time...its so stuffy...my bed sheets smell funny lol....theres cloths all over the floor...It makes me feel fustrated but i cant be bothered to fix it U_U;...

oh btw heres something iv been working on lol..its really wiered...it started out quite emo...but umm.....a sudden change in emotion lead me to kinda start working on a totally different concept for it...uhh..heres the unfinished version!. I spose its a reflection of my indecisivness?(spelling??). Just because i cant make up my mind i want to do with it...ima finish the coloring and in the back ground im just going to write words which pop up into my mind suddenly...In the very first case, it was spose to be good and bad words lol...but i dont think i have the brain capacity to think of a different positive word and a different negative word in consecutive and rotating orders..LOL!...FFS wtf am i talking about...i think i just said a sentance which makes sense even though my own brain doesnt understand..LOL...Anways..
I watched life is beautiful today...it wasnt as sad as I thought! I spose i dont really have much emotional connection with movies like that. It still was a good movie. I quite liked the humor in it :). Very heart warming masterpiece. its strange because what i have been seeing recently and alot of...is piles of dead bodies...LOL...no where's insparticular...just randomly in the movies I watch...LOL...O_o...maybe i should stop watching to many things associated with war. I just finished watching a documentary about the fall of Rome LOL!. Its nice to know the very last emperor was a bitch...LOLZ...
Once again i find myself up at 3:45pm procrastinating sleep. LOLZ...just worried because i think i almost had a heart attack on saturday from drinking to much cofee and read bull LOLZ...Time to see the doctor on tuesday ROFL!..
Fuck i hate my current doctor...hes such a gay indian doctor...He seems so uninterested in my concern for my health. His advice to me was "Dont worry your still young and strong....u should be healthy" So great..i should be healthy...but what if im not?...LOLz..i spose its fine because i got a blood test and had the all clear...ROFL!..why am i even talking about this on my blog...i donno spose i dont mind being a little bit open..but saturday has got me worried...so ima just try stay healthy for now...and see what health advice i can get from the doctor on tueday :).
Ohhh Kay...thats enough for one morning lol time to go to sleep :)...Ohh yeah and im now using armor king. Hes actually alot of fun to use hawhaah! GG!


Thought of the day: Is it true ?? do i have yellow fever?...>_> coincidence.. :P!

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