So me and the boys were talking on the bar again. Todays topic was why I was so grumpy...actually more like why I didnt get enough sleep and as a result was grumpy LOL!
I actually dont know why I dont sleep till like 5 in the morning, then wake up at like 11am and spend the rest of my day awake untill the following 5am *sigh*. So the boys were asking why I dont sleep. They had already suggested alot of things to try make me go to sleep which most of the time didnt work. I went as low as taking herbal remidy shit...fuck it tasted like crap LOL!.
Anyways in the midst of all this they started saying some mean shit to me. Suggesting that there was something in my personal life that I wasnt happy about. On the bar there is this big joke about how im dating such a young girl and most days I can brush it off as just "mucking around" but there is a limit. Today they reached the limit. I did what I do best when Faced with a situation which makes me feel like stabbing people. I just walk away and isolate myself till I am calm again. But what annoys me the most was while I was counting stock and putting things away in the store room. I couldnt stop thinking about what my friend told me. When I thought about it. It was kinda true. And for me to almost agree with him on some level makes me quite upset. I spose its lurking in my subconciouse! maybe i dont spend enough time thinking about how I feel. I donno.....All i know is I love my g/f more than anything else...and when people say things like this...makes me feel ill that they dont understand how much I love her. Anyways on the odd occasion I'll let people talk stupid shit about me and her as a couple....and i'll let this one get away. But I dont like being manipulated into wondering about my relationship situation. It really kills me and breaks my heart.
Anyways I feel better now that Iv typed it out clear for me to read and understand my thoughts.
Thought of the day: I miss my girl!...cant wait to see her tomorow <3
Mol3 s2
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